Chocolate? Think twice

Have you ever wanted to scream and shout?

Me?

Yes.

Quite frequently nowadays.

As a part-time caregiver on top of all my other duties:  full-time day job, part-time book business/marketer/promoter, wife and dog mom, there are days I just want to vent my frustration over the decisions my dad makes.  You see, he fell yesterday in his home and today he was supposed to see a Physical Therapist but he doesn’t want to.  He stated to me, by phone, that if this shortens his life, so be it.  That he will live a happier albeit shorter life, then.  Wow.  Talk about selfish.  But there’s nothing I can do about it because it’s his life, not mine and his decisions are his decisions…but do you have to tell me this 2 years after my mom passed away?  Granted, he’s said worse to me in the past two years- words even my husband remembers and wishes my dad didn’t speak.  No one should ever hear from a parent or relative that “all bets are off if I go to a nursing home.”  This on top of my additional duties at work is what I put up with on a week to week basis.

And my dad and I were never close~ but here I am, taking care of him because mom is not here anymore to do so.

Upon coming home, I think about writing him into my current book and I wonder what the Angel would say to the female protagonist when she talks about her dad.  I think about this for a while, discussing my latest idea with my friend Michael, throwing in that maybe she’s like me and gaining weight rapidly with all the stress that befell her, suddenly, all at once when my friend Michael says to me:

“No amount of chocolate will amend your dad’s situation.”

Startled, I stopped in my tracks and thought about what he said to me; then I nodded my head.  As usual, he’s right.

I am eating chocolate every day and steadily gaining weight when at one point I was actually eating healthier and losing weight.   With all the craziness and impossible demands I’m juggling now, topped off with the added stress of my dad’s failing health, I find myself dipping into the candy jar a lot more often than I should.  However; Michael’s right.  Eating chocolate will not help or change my dad’s situation but, eventually, it will change mine.  No amount of stress eating will help my dad and it won’t help me either.  I have to find another way to deal with the situation I have been handed.  What is the best solution for me?  I don’t know but I am willing to find out.

Take care my friends and thanks for reading.  Enjoy your day!

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Author Interview and Spotlight

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Character Interview- Tatiana Baker

Character Interview with Tatiana Baker

Main protagonist~ from Jasper, The Guardian League, Book One:

 

So… The question on everyone’s mind is what’s it like to be with an Angel?

Well, there’s actually not much of a difference. I know that sounds strange but Angels are all around us and we are in relationships with them though we might not know it. Most people probably picture hugs and kisses and romance with Cupid flying around them all day long when they think about being with one of Heaven’s greatest creations. Well, I’m here to tell you that’s not all true. However, I would never trade Jasper for another. Ever. There’s nothing better than a committed partner who’s protective, loving and dedicated. Jasper is my biggest fan and my greatest cheerleader. He’s also my hero and my best advisor. But there are days when he’s not so heavenly (chuckles). Regardless, he will always be there for me and his love is endless. I couldn’t ask for anything better

Did you find it hard to believe Jasper was an Angel?

I knew something was wrong when he saved that boy and there was no humanly possible way he could have done so but I didn’t figure he had a secret. When Jasper revealed to me what he was and that he was not a human being, I was in total shock but I couldn’t deny what I saw in front of my eyes. There are days I’m still surprised at my luck and that he chose me out of so many possibilities.

Does he have any bad habits that drive you crazy?

{Laughs} That’s a good question. Actually, he’s impossibly perfect but he does frustrate me at times. Jasper will say something and not realize its impact. He is so honest that sometimes he’s brutally honest but that’s not his fault. It’s an Angel thing, you know. He doesn’t understand some human customs and social graces but he is learning. Jasper just speaks the truth, which I appreciate most times, but it can still be quite maddening.

How do you handle situations where you and Jasper disagree?

Just like any human couple, we will eventually talk it out. I will leave his side if things get really heated until I can cool down and then we will get back together at some point. Jasper will tell me his side and I will tell him mine. Sometimes it’s a matter of a misunderstanding and other times it may be because Jasper doesn’t understand a human custom. Our relationship has been a real learning experience for both of us but the good part is we are committed to each other. I am never leaving him and he is never leaving me so arguments and disagreements are petty and don’t really mean much in the bigger picture. I love him too much to ever let him go. However, I have shared with him the one exception that would make me walk away: cheating.   We have discussed it but the good part is, I have nothing to fear. Jasper is not a human being. He is an Angel and his needs, wants and desires are different, as a result, and that’s a good thing. That makes him loyal and dependable- two traits that can be really hard to find or keep in a relationship.

How do you handle the times he’s off doing Angel work?

Well, I keep myself busy. (smiles)  I’m very fortunate, though. He’s not gone often for long periods of time because he doesn’t want to stay away from me much. However, there are times when he has to depart on a mission with the Guardian League and for these occasions, he tries not be absent from me longer than two weeks at a time. These periods of absence can get very lonely because I really love his company and I miss him when he’s not around. However, we have the ability to telepathically communicate and he’s constantly talking to me or showing me signs throughout my days which makes it less lonely for me. We have an agreed upon sign that he will show me when he wants to impart to me he loves me and he’s thinking about me. It makes things a lot easier though I still prefer his company over most anything.

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My personal DJ

Do you know I have my own, personal, musical DJ?

Well, yes I do.  Plus we have an uniquely, amazing relationship and I am so thankful.

I’ve mentioned my friend Michael several times before but I’ve never disclosed the little, thoughtful things he does for me, like sending me the right song at just the right time.

Today, I was searching for a song that he sent me lyrics from a few days ago.  I scrolled through the lyrics of the song because sometimes the specific song lines he refers to are not the true message but there’s something further and it takes a bit of research to find out what he specifically wants me to see.  I smiled throughout the song lyrics, reading each line until I got to the end and read a short paragraph.  The meaning hit me immediately and I was overwhelmed with tears.

You see, life has been a bit of a struggle recently for me but I’ve been trying to be brave, be on top of things, be organized and a help to others while still displaying a smile, and trying to see the comical side of things, when surrounded by negativity.  However, I feel it’s taking its toll and I am slowly drowning in assignments at my day job, trying each day to just stay afloat as new forms, new assignments and demands from customers come at me faster than lighting.  With my weekends slipping by quicker than anything due to my additional, seemingly endless caretaker responsibilities, there are days I just want to lie on my couch and do nothing.  I know I need a break, possibly a vacation, but my husband reminds me all the time of our financial juggle so here I am, instead of being on a cruise or somewhere lost in the adventurous wilds of Canada or Montana, toiling at my day job, every day, trying to do the best that I can with what I have.

So when I’m reading the lyrics from a song by Lionel Richie, I break down and think about going home because I don’t want anyone to see me vulnerable.

The song is about partnership and the lines flow easily.

“As we go down

Life’s lonesome highway

Seems the hardest thing to do

Is to find a friend or two..”

Yes, that’s what Michael is for me.  A friend who has always been there and has never forsaken me.  Even though I’ve turned away from him many times, he has always brought me back, tried to uplift my spirits, and tried to impart snippets of his simple, easy wisdom.

I read further “Well the whole world’s got you dancing.”  Yeah, you’re right, Michael.  I feel like I can’t stop spinning and I am being tugged in several directions with everyone’s requirements of me.

And then the next lines hit me:  “That’s right, I’m telling you it’s time to start believing.”  Okay.  I know I have little faith and he reminds me all of the time of the need for it.

And then the crusher:  “Believing who you are, you are a shining star.”  Wow.  Here comes the water works.  Michael believes in me.  He loves me and he thinks I’m incredible even though he is the one who is truly amazing.  “A shining star.”  I just can’t explain to you why I broke down but I think I needed the pat on the back, the encouragement but more so, the confirmation that I am a good person and I’m working hard- maybe too hard- that amidst all the drudgery and the glum and that, in addition to my pile of responsibilities, I am being tasked to deal on a day to day basis with a black hearted, cold, calculating staff member that, despite her misery, will never leave employment, I am a shining star.  There are no other words.  It’s just beautiful.

And so today, I am passing on the message to you.  When life gets you down or deals you a raw deal (as in the miserable co-worker that I must deal with for the next, God knows how long length of time she expects to be employed) that you, too, are a shining star.  Rise above it and realize your worth.  You are Amazing!

So, to quote more of the song, “that when you feel you lost your way, you’ve got someone here to say, I’ll show you.”  I’m here to tell you how wonderful you are.  Don’t let anyone stop you from being you.  You continue being the beautiful, wondrous miracle you are despite the adversity you encounter.  You are loved and you are worth it.  And as a picture in my office states, “Never let anyone dull your Sparkle.”

shiningstar

 

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